What's Goin On?

So this post will be a little different than the norm. Instead of focusing on one of the statements from my list, I think I'm just gonna talk a little about, "What's Goin' On?" In my last post, I mentioned that I haven't blogged all month. There are many reasons (yeah, you could say excuses) as to why I haven't. But to sum it all up. July is such a bittersweet month for me. In addition to bittersweet it has been a bit stressful for me as well. Nevertheless, it is what it is!

I will try to elaborate a little more on each one of these in the days ahead. (No promises!) So, what's been going on?
You would think life would be footloose and fancy free right now since school is out. Well it gets stressful for me since I'm on a strict budget and I kick myself over and over for not saving like I said I would all year long. You would think I would learn, but this year, it hurts a little harder. I know what I've got to do, it's just a matter of doing it. (Trust me, I know I'm not the only one with this problem!)
Kaedyn has been home with us all summer. For those, that know me well...interesting, yes, I know! Everyone is still breathing, which is good. Kaedyn has only been to the sitter once since school got out. Shocker, huh? Now don't get me wrong, I love my boy (this I know for sure), but we haven't been with each other this much since the 6 weeks I was on maternity leave. And trust me, a lot has changed since then! Things get hectic, chaotic, nerve wracking, and overwhelming often. Some days are better than others. But deep breaths, my bathroom hideaway, and play dates have saved me a lot days this summer. But overall, I have enjoyed my "Good Morning wake ups", hugs, kisses, and the quality time I am getting to spend with him.
My high school 1o year reunion is coming up. (t-7 days) There's a lot of emotions and anxiety coming along with it. We will see how this next week plays out. Excited about going, but anxious about the emotions.
This year also marks the 10 year anniversary of my mother's death. ooh, how it has hurt. I haven't said much to anyone about it, I've just tried to deal with it on my own. (certainly, not the best way. but everyone else has their own issues. so, i hate to bother someone as i sit in sob.)
Beach Vacation with my dad's family (enough said, right there)
And trust me there are a few other things on my mind, but I'll stop right there.

But at the same time, there's a lot good going on too.
Quality time with family (just the 3 of us)
Growing more in my faith and growing more as a person
Learning more about poeple, life, and how to handle situations
The thankfulness and gratefulness I have in my heart.

And so, that's what's goin on. More to come soon.

But I'll leave you with a little excerpt from the book I'm reading. (Can't give the title just yet, but it's some good stuff.)
"Rather than life being hills and valleys, I believe that it's kind of like two rails on a railroad track, and at all times you have something good and something bad in your life. No matter how good things are in your life, there is always something bad that needs to be worked on. And no matter how bad things are in your life, there is always something good you can thank God for."

Now, there's something to think about!

Melanie